Prayer Requests 3-22-18

It’s Thursday, so don’t forget to pray for Jo, her students, and the people of PNG.

Anyone else?

Psalm 42:1-5

As the deer pants for streams of water,
    so my soul pants for you, my God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
    When can I go and meet with God?
My tears have been my food
    day and night,
   while people say to me all day long,
    “Where is your God?”
These things I remember
    as I pour out my soul:
   how I used to go to the house of God
    under the protection of the Mighty One
   with shouts of joy and praise
    among the festive throng.

Why, my soul, are you downcast?
    Why so disturbed within me?
   Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.

9 thoughts on “Prayer Requests 3-22-18

  1. It was on Monday that Chickadee said she would send me an email after she composes her thoughts. Haven’t heard from her yet. That’s making me nervous about what she might say.

    I have been praying for the Holy Spirit to move in a “deep” way in this situation, in each of my daughters. (God knows what I mean by “deep”.)

    May He bring something wonderfully good out of this.

    Quite frankly, I am wondering what Chickadee is going to do now. I would think that after the initial feeling of relief and empowerment (for sticking up for herself by quitting – not that I agree that that was the way to handle it), she would have a feeling of panic, realizing she is now without a way to make any money. And I am still concerned that YF and her sister are probably giving her bad advice.

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  2. Well, I finally heard back from Chickadee. She’s not coming back to co-childsit. She said she had been considering quitting for a while, and that she is now going to focus on her education, her health (?), and possibly having a career someday. Knowing her as I do, knowing how very anxious and overwhelmed she can become, I cannot imagine her going to college or even getting through a job interview, let alone doing a job for several hours a day.

    (She spent much of our child-sitting time in her room, decompressing from the stress of whatever we’d done with The Boy, even if that was merely playing a game with him. Then she’d come out for a while, and go back in after another little while. Most days lately, she was in her room more than she was out of it. I was grateful for her presence, though, which I could call upon if needed. We would split up some duties, such as one of us making dinner while the other hung out with The Boy. )

    Do you know how much it hurts for a mother to say that about her own child? It’s not that Chickadee isn’t intelligent – she’s very intelligent – it’s just a matter of how very anxious she gets over anything the least bit outside of her comfort zone. (Remember, we strongly suspect she is on the autism spectrum, or has something like autism.) Of course I want her to succeed at the things she mentioned, but I wonder how she is going to manage them. (And how would she pay for college? Unless by “education”, she was referring to her current studying for her GED.)

    What saddened me the most, though, is that she says that Nightingale has treated her cruelly and inconsiderately for most of her life. Granted, Nightingale was the typical big sister picking on her little sister, but not in any cruel way that I ever observed. Unfortunately, Nightingale’s no-nonsense streak makes her often quite terse or impatient-sounding. She can even have me, her own mother, feeling somewhat intimidated at times. But even so, I believe that Chickadee’s sensitivity (often over-sensitivity) is coloring how she sees her sister.

    I haven’t replied to Chickadee’s email yet. I have to think over my reply. My heart hurts over this situation. Oh, how both my girls need Jesus!

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  3. Kizzie. You know I love you. Now I am going to hurt you. Let Chickadee go. You may be making her feel guilt and pressured and that may be why she doesn’t want to be there. You were pretty much paying her to grace you with her presence. Stop. What you are describing is co-dependence. It hurts when the other person leaves the game. She is over the age of 21. You have zero control. Call her to chat. Tell her you live her but lay off the guilt——for both of you.

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  4. Kim – Don’t worry, I am letting her go. And I have always been careful to not pressure her, and have not laid any guilt on her. I had told her a few times, including recently, that she was free to do something else. She often would not be available to be here due to plans she made with friends, and I did not complain.

    But yes, this hurts. The influence of the McK sisters is thick and strong, and it is so ungodly. That home is where the true dysfunction lies. I fear for her. And then I entrust her to God. It is all I can do.

    She did say she wants to come over on Tuesday evenings for dinner, because that is the night she can be picked up. (When we would child-sit on Tuesday nights, she would be picked up, as she and a couple or so friends – one being one of the McK girls – always get together on Tuesdays because it’s the one night when they are all free.) I am hoping my daughters can gradually repair their relationship as we dine together each week.

    Even though I know that she needs to do this (and even think it may be a positive thing, especially if it makes her deal with her situation more honestly), it is a big personal loss to me.

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  5. Since Chickadee is very anxious about using the phone (enough to make her cry sometimes), I doubt we’ll be chatting on the phone. But there is still texting we can do, or emails.

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  6. Kizzie, this sounds like it could be a really big step in Chickadee growing up. She was able to make a decision to stop doing something that no longer was a good situation for her, even knowing it would hurt other people for her to make the choice to step away. She also was able to stick it out for several years, and she did it long enough that the Boy is old enough that he doesn’t need to be entertained or watched ever minute. This could really be a wonderful growing time for all of you, and probably good for the Boy to not feel like the household revolves around him, too.

    You’ve had a lot of hard transitions over this last year, but this has the chance to be more positive than the other ones.

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