It’s Friday, so please remember to pray for Mumsee, Mike, and the young folks at The Nest.
Anyone else?
Psalm 12
¹Help, Lord; for the godly man ceaseth; for the faithful fail from among the children of men.
2 They speak vanity every one with his neighbour: with flattering lips and with a double heart do they speak.
3 The Lord shall cut off all flattering lips, and the tongue that speaketh proud things:
4 Who have said, With our tongue will we prevail; our lips are our own: who is lord over us?
5 For the oppression of the poor, for the sighing of the needy, now will I arise, saith the Lord; I will set him in safety from him that puffeth at him.
6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times.
7 Thou shalt keep them, O Lord, thou shalt preserve them from this generation for ever.
8 The wicked walk on every side, when the vilest men are exalted.
I need prayers for more patience, for help in not getting angry when around angry people, and for being a good support for Art and my brother in their times of need. Thank you.
As you can probably guess–when I sleep and can’t control my thoughts that is when a lifetime of hurts and hang ups rear their ugly heads. I can tell you all the ways I am worthless. I can tell you why I am not a good mother, wife, employee.
Bellator tried to let me go back in February. I clung on by my bloody fingernails because I wanted to be part of something. I had just started healing from the train wreck that working at Keller Williams was. I still miss being part of that; it would probably do me well to unfriend the whole lot of them on FB so I don’t see what I am missing.
Well now I have removed myself from the Bellator office. I won’t go back. I so wanted to belong there but I didn’t. There is a Christmas party planned December 11th at the Grand Hotel. It promises to be quite the to do. I stayed on after we closed on the house because I wanted to go to the Christmas party. What a stupid thing to do. Yesterday I lost all interest in going. I don’t belong. I don’t want to be there.
Perhaps this cut/hurt will make it easier to let go of other things as well.
Guess what, Kim. Many of us have those same thoughts as we try to learn to take every thought captive. They are lies. So we must cling to the Truth: we are loved, enough to die for. Michelle’s paper on prayer comes to mind. Rather than rehashing it, as I am prone to do, you need to catch yourself and pray for those who hurt you. Pray for those you worked with, both the ones you miss and the ones you don’t. Weeping and praying with you, beloved sister.
Praying that God blesses you in a very special way today, Kim, reassuring you of how precious you are to him and so many others who love, enjoy and rely on you every day.
I love working from home when possible, but I would also miss the camaraderie of an office / newsroom (in my case) setting, so I understand your feeling of isolation right now. God takes us through these seasons of change for purpose, but it’s seldom easy and is hard to see the big picture of what he’s doing when we’re smack in the middle of it. Oy.
And like mumsee, your lament had a very familiar ring to me as well (and everything’s worse first thing in the morning when it comes to those wild, random thoughts brought to us and sponsored by the enemy).
Spiritual warfare, every day, life is.
I’ve been reading Ps. 116 the past couple days, calling on the name of the Lord. We are to do it throughout the day (and night).
Soooooo. …. BG is nauseous and can’t eat. She has been having headaches. She got to school this morning and came back. She now has to have a doctor’s excuse, so I took her back. She has lost 4 pounds since Monday.
She is severely dehydrated, she is in ketosis, has white blood cells and something else in her urine. She needs to drink 64oz before she is even level and then she needs to drink more. He let her come home instead of go to the hospital for fluids because I am home and can get liquids into her.
God love him. He came back in the exam room while she was getting an X Ray and asked me what we (him included) were going to do with her. I told him we had to love her we worked to hard to have her.
It’s one of those days when I do not know how to pray because I just don’t understand all the things that seem to go wrong in so many lives. Thank You that we can trust that You are loving us through it all and lifting us up out of the mire when we only feel stuck and sinking deeper. Please work Your goodness, and when necessary, Your miracles into each situation mentioned on here today. Others need Your resolution and wait for Your best answers instead of grabbing the first possible answer. Thank You for being trustworthy and always available with a listening heart. I pray in Jesus’ name, Amen
Kim, it must be about control, something she can control when other things are out of her control. I think that is how a lot of eating disorders progress, but with her I guess it is a drinking fluids disorder.
Wandering Views 
I need prayers for more patience, for help in not getting angry when around angry people, and for being a good support for Art and my brother in their times of need. Thank you.
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As you can probably guess–when I sleep and can’t control my thoughts that is when a lifetime of hurts and hang ups rear their ugly heads. I can tell you all the ways I am worthless. I can tell you why I am not a good mother, wife, employee.
Bellator tried to let me go back in February. I clung on by my bloody fingernails because I wanted to be part of something. I had just started healing from the train wreck that working at Keller Williams was. I still miss being part of that; it would probably do me well to unfriend the whole lot of them on FB so I don’t see what I am missing.
Well now I have removed myself from the Bellator office. I won’t go back. I so wanted to belong there but I didn’t. There is a Christmas party planned December 11th at the Grand Hotel. It promises to be quite the to do. I stayed on after we closed on the house because I wanted to go to the Christmas party. What a stupid thing to do. Yesterday I lost all interest in going. I don’t belong. I don’t want to be there.
Perhaps this cut/hurt will make it easier to let go of other things as well.
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Guess what, Kim. Many of us have those same thoughts as we try to learn to take every thought captive. They are lies. So we must cling to the Truth: we are loved, enough to die for. Michelle’s paper on prayer comes to mind. Rather than rehashing it, as I am prone to do, you need to catch yourself and pray for those who hurt you. Pray for those you worked with, both the ones you miss and the ones you don’t. Weeping and praying with you, beloved sister.
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Praying that God blesses you in a very special way today, Kim, reassuring you of how precious you are to him and so many others who love, enjoy and rely on you every day.
I love working from home when possible, but I would also miss the camaraderie of an office / newsroom (in my case) setting, so I understand your feeling of isolation right now. God takes us through these seasons of change for purpose, but it’s seldom easy and is hard to see the big picture of what he’s doing when we’re smack in the middle of it. Oy.
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And like mumsee, your lament had a very familiar ring to me as well (and everything’s worse first thing in the morning when it comes to those wild, random thoughts brought to us and sponsored by the enemy).
Spiritual warfare, every day, life is.
I’ve been reading Ps. 116 the past couple days, calling on the name of the Lord. We are to do it throughout the day (and night).
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Soooooo. …. BG is nauseous and can’t eat. She has been having headaches. She got to school this morning and came back. She now has to have a doctor’s excuse, so I took her back. She has lost 4 pounds since Monday.
She is severely dehydrated, she is in ketosis, has white blood cells and something else in her urine. She needs to drink 64oz before she is even level and then she needs to drink more. He let her come home instead of go to the hospital for fluids because I am home and can get liquids into her.
God love him. He came back in the exam room while she was getting an X Ray and asked me what we (him included) were going to do with her. I told him we had to love her we worked to hard to have her.
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It is hard to watch. I suspect it is self imposed. But it still hurts. I am so glad you are able to be home with her! Thank You, Lord!
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Heavenly Father,
It’s one of those days when I do not know how to pray because I just don’t understand all the things that seem to go wrong in so many lives. Thank You that we can trust that You are loving us through it all and lifting us up out of the mire when we only feel stuck and sinking deeper. Please work Your goodness, and when necessary, Your miracles into each situation mentioned on here today. Others need Your resolution and wait for Your best answers instead of grabbing the first possible answer. Thank You for being trustworthy and always available with a listening heart. I pray in Jesus’ name, Amen
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28 oz of Gatorade in
18 oz of water in
Need 18 more
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Good mom. Sure beats an IV or stomach tube.
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I don’t understand how you let yourself get dehydrated. I drink water all day. We are to carb load her.
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Kim, it must be about control, something she can control when other things are out of her control. I think that is how a lot of eating disorders progress, but with her I guess it is a drinking fluids disorder.
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Shhh. Janice you weren’t supposed to say that out loud. We are working on it. She is with nano now
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I suddenly have to go to the bathroom after reading this
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