Today I am going back to October 31 in Daily Affirmations for ACOA
PERCEPTIONS
Today I trust my perceptions.
On this day I affirm what I see, what I feel and what I sense are real–I can trust myself, I validate my experiences, my senses, and my intuition.
As a child, I was influenced by the “no talk” ruler in my family, and I cam to distrust my perceptions. The constant denial that there was a problem in my home and led me to believe that I was the one who was crazy. This pattern, more than any other, have caused me hurt and disappointment.
How many times have I disregarded my own warning signals? I have entered into relationships that I knew were bad for me. I have rushed into situations that I knew were dangerous. How many times must I continue to walk into the same brick wall and bruise myself?
For years I’ve tried to move the wall. Today I will walk in a different direction. I am learning to avoid hurt by seeing people and situations for what they are–not for what I wish them to be. I am extremely capable of perceiving what is real. I will judge what lies ahead of me and make decisions in my own best interest.
Ann, how you feel is how YOU feel. How your siblings feel are their feelings. You are not crazy. You may get hurt again by holding out hope that something will change in your mother, but your willingness to hold out that hope is admirable. Take that from someone who gave up hope. {{{{{Ann}}}}}
Good news from my cousin about Uncle Frank; He looks great in the FB photos! 🙂
Good morning ! All is going smooth. Hoping for release in the next couple days. So far so good. Just painful. Thank you for all your great thoughts , prayers and kind words. We all appreciate it!!! ❤️🙏🏽thank you my friends and family.
You may not want to hear this answer. Storing bottles of urine is not uncommon in the drug abuse culture. Stored urine, if it’s “clean” and from a non-using individual, can be sold for use during mandatory drug screening for individuals on parole or probation. If she has been off drugs for a time, she may be selling her urine for this purpose. It’s also possible that the bottles contained urine from another individual, hoping she could somehow continue to use drugs and pass her mandatory drug screens with her bottled “clean” urine. This is rarely successful and she may have tested “dirty” again, prompting her return to the correctional facility. Hospitals and law enforcement use many strategies to prevent the use of stored, borrowed or portable urine in drug testing procedures. I won’t be discussing those strategies.
Most interesting is the use of bottled urine by methamphetamine users. I’ve been told (I’m not a urine expert!) that some meth users actually drink their own urine or the urine of other meth users at times under the assumption that the urine contains active chemical components or metabolites of their meth use. This is apparently another attempt to obtain a “high”.
I have also had experience with individuals who are shy about using group restrooms in group homes, prisons, jails, hospitals, rehab programs, etc. They often hide feces and urine in their living area rather than use a group restroom. This practice is especially common if there is a fear of sexual/physical assault in the group toilet facilities.
Lastly, there are a few cultures that recommend drinking one’s morning urine for health purposes. It seems morning urine contains a high concentration of melatonin, a substance often used for sleep and jet lag. This is unlikely unless the young lady was from Tibet.
I am going with guess number three. But he has the entire outdoors to go and does. He never takes it with him and nobody comes to the house to get it so he is not selling it, but I will ask in an attempt to get him to see it is not appropriate.
I am utterly surprised at how naïve I can be about some things.
I thought I had heard it all. But this is new.
I had never heard of storing urine before.
At times, we used “slop jars” in the evening, but that is different.
Little Guy did well with the anesthesia. The man had to hold the mask on his face, as he was fighting it a bit. He was told to start counting to 200. He made it to 3 before falling asleep. 🙂
Wandering Views 
Today I am going back to October 31 in Daily Affirmations for ACOA
PERCEPTIONS
Today I trust my perceptions.
On this day I affirm what I see, what I feel and what I sense are real–I can trust myself, I validate my experiences, my senses, and my intuition.
As a child, I was influenced by the “no talk” ruler in my family, and I cam to distrust my perceptions. The constant denial that there was a problem in my home and led me to believe that I was the one who was crazy. This pattern, more than any other, have caused me hurt and disappointment.
How many times have I disregarded my own warning signals? I have entered into relationships that I knew were bad for me. I have rushed into situations that I knew were dangerous. How many times must I continue to walk into the same brick wall and bruise myself?
For years I’ve tried to move the wall. Today I will walk in a different direction. I am learning to avoid hurt by seeing people and situations for what they are–not for what I wish them to be. I am extremely capable of perceiving what is real. I will judge what lies ahead of me and make decisions in my own best interest.
Ann, how you feel is how YOU feel. How your siblings feel are their feelings. You are not crazy. You may get hurt again by holding out hope that something will change in your mother, but your willingness to hold out that hope is admirable. Take that from someone who gave up hope. {{{{{Ann}}}}}
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I found two more containers of urine in the boy’s room. Pringles and Snapple. Where does he get this stuff and why does he store that? Wisdom….
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Is he selling it to friends for drug tests?
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Good news from my cousin about Uncle Frank; He looks great in the FB photos! 🙂
Good morning ! All is going smooth. Hoping for release in the next couple days. So far so good. Just painful. Thank you for all your great thoughts , prayers and kind words. We all appreciate it!!! ❤️🙏🏽thank you my friends and family.
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I will ask him, he does seem to come up with money when he shouldn’t.
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https://askthepsych.com/atp/2008/10/08/storing-bottles-of-urine/
You may not want to hear this answer. Storing bottles of urine is not uncommon in the drug abuse culture. Stored urine, if it’s “clean” and from a non-using individual, can be sold for use during mandatory drug screening for individuals on parole or probation. If she has been off drugs for a time, she may be selling her urine for this purpose. It’s also possible that the bottles contained urine from another individual, hoping she could somehow continue to use drugs and pass her mandatory drug screens with her bottled “clean” urine. This is rarely successful and she may have tested “dirty” again, prompting her return to the correctional facility. Hospitals and law enforcement use many strategies to prevent the use of stored, borrowed or portable urine in drug testing procedures. I won’t be discussing those strategies.
Most interesting is the use of bottled urine by methamphetamine users. I’ve been told (I’m not a urine expert!) that some meth users actually drink their own urine or the urine of other meth users at times under the assumption that the urine contains active chemical components or metabolites of their meth use. This is apparently another attempt to obtain a “high”.
I have also had experience with individuals who are shy about using group restrooms in group homes, prisons, jails, hospitals, rehab programs, etc. They often hide feces and urine in their living area rather than use a group restroom. This practice is especially common if there is a fear of sexual/physical assault in the group toilet facilities.
Lastly, there are a few cultures that recommend drinking one’s morning urine for health purposes. It seems morning urine contains a high concentration of melatonin, a substance often used for sleep and jet lag. This is unlikely unless the young lady was from Tibet.
Well, you had to ask…
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I am going with guess number three. But he has the entire outdoors to go and does. He never takes it with him and nobody comes to the house to get it so he is not selling it, but I will ask in an attempt to get him to see it is not appropriate.
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I also would think 3. Hope it helps you know what to say and how to handle it.
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I am utterly surprised at how naïve I can be about some things.
I thought I had heard it all. But this is new.
I had never heard of storing urine before.
At times, we used “slop jars” in the evening, but that is different.
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Bathroom remodel going on?
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Chas, don’t be surprised and hold on to being naive. There are some things I know that I wish I didn’t.
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Uncle Frank went home–two days after a hip replacement! Thanks for prayers.
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Little Guy did well with the anesthesia. The man had to hold the mask on his face, as he was fighting it a bit. He was told to start counting to 200. He made it to 3 before falling asleep. 🙂
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By fighting it, I just mean he was moving his head back & forth, as it felt weird to him. He wasn’t “fighting” it.
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