2 Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3 Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.
5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7 Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21 Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
My daughter has a three hour “group” interview (with five others) next week for an EMT position. She’s very excited to not have automatically gone into the rejected pile and had a good conversation with the interview scheduler.
She’s now starting to write her personal statements for the med and PA school applications and could use some insight.
In another note that is discouraging to me personally and which I need to pray through, is she told me that end of the family considers all in our nuclear family “too proud.”
They’re probably right, since pride is a sin I confess regularly. But I’m having trouble shaking off the feeling that I’ve misrepresented the Lord to those unchurched relatives.
There’s nothing I can say to them, but if you could pray that I would recognize how and where I need to change to better conform to Christ, I’d be grateful.
Michelle – It’s possible that you haven’t been “too proud”, but they may feel sour grapes about your & your family’s successes. It was pretty rude of them to tell your daughter that.
With my brother & his family cutting off our relationship, I, too, feel I have somehow failed to live Christ before them well enough. (At one time, my SIL. at least, saw God’s grace through me.) But I also know that part of that cutting off was due to a misunderstanding, which I amply explained & apologized for. It is painful, though.
Praying the Holy Spirit’s guidance for you as you seek to be more like Him. (I’ve been praying that for myself, too.)
Wandering Views 
My daughter has a three hour “group” interview (with five others) next week for an EMT position. She’s very excited to not have automatically gone into the rejected pile and had a good conversation with the interview scheduler.
She’s now starting to write her personal statements for the med and PA school applications and could use some insight.
In another note that is discouraging to me personally and which I need to pray through, is she told me that end of the family considers all in our nuclear family “too proud.”
They’re probably right, since pride is a sin I confess regularly. But I’m having trouble shaking off the feeling that I’ve misrepresented the Lord to those unchurched relatives.
There’s nothing I can say to them, but if you could pray that I would recognize how and where I need to change to better conform to Christ, I’d be grateful.
Thanks.
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With you on that one, for sure.
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Michelle – It’s possible that you haven’t been “too proud”, but they may feel sour grapes about your & your family’s successes. It was pretty rude of them to tell your daughter that.
With my brother & his family cutting off our relationship, I, too, feel I have somehow failed to live Christ before them well enough. (At one time, my SIL. at least, saw God’s grace through me.) But I also know that part of that cutting off was due to a misunderstanding, which I amply explained & apologized for. It is painful, though.
Praying the Holy Spirit’s guidance for you as you seek to be more like Him. (I’ve been praying that for myself, too.)
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