What should have been a happy day ended up stressful and heartbreaking.
I didn’t get to see my Baby today. She had other plans. I feel like such a failure in so many different areas.
I get no recognition for the things I do at work and I don’t have much else left
What kind of mother am I ?
Kim, dear, you are not responsible for BG making other plans. She is in selfish phase of life right now, & your heart is the collateral damage.
I understand the feeling of being a failure in many areas, as I often feel that way myself. But even so, I know that God loves me, & He loves you, & He put us where we are for a reason.
Praying God will give you a sense of purpose in your job, or show you if He wants you elsewhere, & praying comfort for your battered heart. {{{Hugs}}} dear sister.
Welcome to the family, Kim, we are all failures as moms. But that is okay. We love our children and do what we think best and they think we are lunatics and then they grow up and we are the best moms ever. But that is a ways down the line for some.
Kim, Mumsee is right, we are all failures as moms. Last Mother’s Day was awful for me, I kept thinking of all the things I could have/should have done differently, only one child called (the other texted, which, to me, feels like a cop out), daughter had not told us what happened with her practicum (still hasn’t, but at least she shared that she would be going back to finish in January). Sometimes life sucks. BG will grow up and will realize and appreciate all you have done and even when you could have done something different, she will understand that you did what you thought was best at the time AND she will love you for it. Just keep loving her and keep putting her in God’s hands.
In the failure-as-a-mom department: same here with my oldest daughter (the one child not living at home). Mother’s Day seemed to turn into one bunch of excuses after another. She texted me that the card would be coming in the mail. It never did. I thought there might be trouble with the mail because something from someone else that was supposed to arrive never did, either, so I asked daughter if she had sent the card. No, she forgot, then she couldn’t find the card, etc. etc. When she visited this summer, then she did bring a gift.
Today was my birthday. No text, no call, no card, no gift, nothing from her. She was always the thoughtful, responsible one. Now I hardly hear from her, and my husband has told me she says she wants nothing to do with the kind of life I’m living.
I very often feel like a failure. She was with me 24/7 from Kindergarten on, and rejects this lifestyle. And she was my easy one. Hardly ever a minute of trouble with her. I feel now like I have failed her, that I didn’t invest enough in her while I was busy putting out fires with some of the other ones. I’m beginning to wonder now if the “easy” ones aren’t the hardest of them all.
But God isn’t finished with any of us yet. The enemy just wants us to feel like our family and other situations are hopeless. But they’re not. (I’m talking as much to myself as to anyone else.)
God’s working right now, though we can’t always see what He’s up to. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1
That’s the thing to cling to, the Word of our Lord. Truth.
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Prayer for the real, for his health and well being. And, as always, for his spiritual road.
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What should have been a happy day ended up stressful and heartbreaking.
I didn’t get to see my Baby today. She had other plans. I feel like such a failure in so many different areas.
I get no recognition for the things I do at work and I don’t have much else left
What kind of mother am I ?
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Kim, dear, you are not responsible for BG making other plans. She is in selfish phase of life right now, & your heart is the collateral damage.
I understand the feeling of being a failure in many areas, as I often feel that way myself. But even so, I know that God loves me, & He loves you, & He put us where we are for a reason.
Praying God will give you a sense of purpose in your job, or show you if He wants you elsewhere, & praying comfort for your battered heart. {{{Hugs}}} dear sister.
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Welcome to the family, Kim, we are all failures as moms. But that is okay. We love our children and do what we think best and they think we are lunatics and then they grow up and we are the best moms ever. But that is a ways down the line for some.
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Wish I could give you a hug right now, Kim. Someday Chloe will see the light. ❤
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Hope you’re feeling better, AJ. Praying.
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Kim, Mumsee is right, we are all failures as moms. Last Mother’s Day was awful for me, I kept thinking of all the things I could have/should have done differently, only one child called (the other texted, which, to me, feels like a cop out), daughter had not told us what happened with her practicum (still hasn’t, but at least she shared that she would be going back to finish in January). Sometimes life sucks. BG will grow up and will realize and appreciate all you have done and even when you could have done something different, she will understand that you did what you thought was best at the time AND she will love you for it. Just keep loving her and keep putting her in God’s hands.
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In the failure-as-a-mom department: same here with my oldest daughter (the one child not living at home). Mother’s Day seemed to turn into one bunch of excuses after another. She texted me that the card would be coming in the mail. It never did. I thought there might be trouble with the mail because something from someone else that was supposed to arrive never did, either, so I asked daughter if she had sent the card. No, she forgot, then she couldn’t find the card, etc. etc. When she visited this summer, then she did bring a gift.
Today was my birthday. No text, no call, no card, no gift, nothing from her. She was always the thoughtful, responsible one. Now I hardly hear from her, and my husband has told me she says she wants nothing to do with the kind of life I’m living.
I very often feel like a failure. She was with me 24/7 from Kindergarten on, and rejects this lifestyle. And she was my easy one. Hardly ever a minute of trouble with her. I feel now like I have failed her, that I didn’t invest enough in her while I was busy putting out fires with some of the other ones. I’m beginning to wonder now if the “easy” ones aren’t the hardest of them all.
But God isn’t finished with any of us yet. The enemy just wants us to feel like our family and other situations are hopeless. But they’re not. (I’m talking as much to myself as to anyone else.)
God’s working right now, though we can’t always see what He’s up to. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1
That’s the thing to cling to, the Word of our Lord. Truth.
His mercies are new every morning. Soldier on.
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Well said, 6 arrows. Prayers for you and your eldest.
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