I haven’t been around much this week. I saw BG’s and my therapist yesterday. BG has been away from me 11 1/2 months now with no signs of coming home. Last Friday George played me, using my deepest insecurity/fear against me. He told me he had talked to “someone” who told him that BG feels that I have chosen P over her. She spends very little time with me when she comes to my house—about 4 hours the whole weekend.
There are other things going on and I feel rejected on so many levels. I am more depressed than I have been in a long time. I can’t seem to stop the tears, so I have been escaping into a book. I’ve read three since Sunday and worked 50+ hours.
Yesterday the therapist asked me who all I had praying for me and this situation. I told her I had you. She told me to ask you to pray specifically for this situation and for me. My klb1668 email is locked so I can’t even reach out to some of you who have been such an encouragement to me, so please just pray. I’ll be back once I battle the Black Wolf of Depression back into his hole. It is very fitting that it is dark as night here and storming.
I have a 9 am conference call I need to get prepared.
Thank you.
It’s a rainy and dull kind of day today. Thank You for the variety and for the nourishing gentle rain that will make spring flowers grow in beauty and number.
I lift up 6 Arrows today for her recording time and rehersal that all will go smoothly. I really hope, Abba, that You will allow us here to get to see and hear her on You Tube. Please bless us like that! More than that though, Father God, I pray for performance mercies for 6 Arrows when she is before the live audience. And may the other acts be just as the performers and director hope for. May there be lots to rejoice over and vlap about. May 6 Arrows feel lifted by our prayers and prayers from her family and friends.
Lord, I do offer up a special prayer of blessing over Mumsee and Mike and the Nestlings. Each is a dear child to You even if they are grown-up. Thank You for the provision of this job for Mike. Help him toward a good attitude. May things fall into place so that he feels Your divine hand of goodness at work in his life. Bring helpful counsel to Mumsee if she does not know how to handle a situation. Thank You for the strengths You have gifted her with. She is a powerhouse of energy as she guides and directs the wounded children in her care and takes care of the farm animals, too. Thank You for giving her Jake to help. Please comfort her as she misses Mike’s physical presence. And comfort each child in the uniqueness of their grief. May others be inspired through Mumsee and Mike to do such work to help children in need.
Thank you so much, Janice. Third Arrow (my videographer) and I are just about ready to head out now to rehearsal. She’s got together all she needs for taping and an extra tape, too, just in case, and I feel ready on my end of things. I was glad for that first practice yesterday, though, as the piano at the performance venue is far different than my own. I needed just about the whole hour I set aside for practice just to get used to that piano. Today I think it will be much easier to get acclimated more quickly to it, and I should be able to get the music recorded, listened to, and re-recorded, if need be, before my hour session is up. I really appreciate the prayers!
Kim, so sorry what you’re going through. Please know I’m praying.
I have seen you two together, Kim, she loves you. You love her. She is so used to manipulating you, she is just doing it. As is her dear poppa. Love P, she will be okay. Let George raise her, enjoy the time with her, grow with P. You have not chosen one over the other. She is choosing to be rude and cruel. That comes with that age sometimes.
Kim, remember to take every thought captive. Stop the lies in your head and substitute those for truth. I so understand. It is so easy to believe the lies. If your daughter believes such a thing, your ex should be pointing out the fallacy of it to her, of course. Your daughter is at an age to think everything is about her. She is like a river and will go wherever it is easiest for her to get her way. Some adults exploit that, not looking out for the child’s best. Looking for their best is the hard way, but worth it in the end. Daughters this age can be very hard on their moms. Your value does not depend on her opinion, however, or anyone else’s. Grab those bible verses that tell you that truth.
Kim, remember last fall you asked for cards from different states to be sent to your young friend in Virginia? I don’t know if she told you what was written on the cards.
On each card, I wrote “Your auntie Kimmie loves you”. Late in the year, I sent one from Williamsburg and said, “You realize that if your auntie Kimmie didn’t love you, none of this would be happening?” Then, Next day I sent another that said, “It also means that someone loves your Auntie Kimmy, doesn’t it? “
I did not see your post until this afternoon, Kim. So sorry to hear that you are feeling down. We would all like to work out things here for you and others like Karen O if we could. Our hearts ache for those going through difficult times. I.do know that our Father God works all things out for good for those who love Him and are called for His purposes. I do believe that you have done best by BG in that you have given her responsibility to make choices and live them out. God does that for us, too. And you are showing her what it means to be in a supportive and loving marriage. We are on earth after the fall and marriage is never lived in the perfection God intended when He created men and women. Divorce and its complications hit some really wonderful people. You ard in the midst of a complication, but you know God iwill see you through as He has done in the past. Please find a hymn book and sing your favorites to remind you of His greatness and power over the temporary sufferings on this earth. We can’t fix things, but He can give you comfort and joy even in sad times if you will look to Him.
Kim you have been on my heart for a few days now…today especially as now I know your heart is hurting….we do love you so…and so does the 16yr old…she will come around…and true is the word that as she sees love and devotion modeled before her (you and your misterP) it will have lasting effects upon her…yep…it will…our “little manipulator” has seen it…and now….12 years later…I see a devotion and love between her and her husband…a united front as they parent their children (one being her 15 yr old step daughter who is giving them fits!!) …God is good…all the time…and all the time…God is good 🙂
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I haven’t been around much this week. I saw BG’s and my therapist yesterday. BG has been away from me 11 1/2 months now with no signs of coming home. Last Friday George played me, using my deepest insecurity/fear against me. He told me he had talked to “someone” who told him that BG feels that I have chosen P over her. She spends very little time with me when she comes to my house—about 4 hours the whole weekend.
There are other things going on and I feel rejected on so many levels. I am more depressed than I have been in a long time. I can’t seem to stop the tears, so I have been escaping into a book. I’ve read three since Sunday and worked 50+ hours.
Yesterday the therapist asked me who all I had praying for me and this situation. I told her I had you. She told me to ask you to pray specifically for this situation and for me. My klb1668 email is locked so I can’t even reach out to some of you who have been such an encouragement to me, so please just pray. I’ll be back once I battle the Black Wolf of Depression back into his hole. It is very fitting that it is dark as night here and storming.
I have a 9 am conference call I need to get prepared.
Thank you.
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Heavenly Father,
It’s a rainy and dull kind of day today. Thank You for the variety and for the nourishing gentle rain that will make spring flowers grow in beauty and number.
I lift up 6 Arrows today for her recording time and rehersal that all will go smoothly. I really hope, Abba, that You will allow us here to get to see and hear her on You Tube. Please bless us like that! More than that though, Father God, I pray for performance mercies for 6 Arrows when she is before the live audience. And may the other acts be just as the performers and director hope for. May there be lots to rejoice over and vlap about. May 6 Arrows feel lifted by our prayers and prayers from her family and friends.
Lord, I do offer up a special prayer of blessing over Mumsee and Mike and the Nestlings. Each is a dear child to You even if they are grown-up. Thank You for the provision of this job for Mike. Help him toward a good attitude. May things fall into place so that he feels Your divine hand of goodness at work in his life. Bring helpful counsel to Mumsee if she does not know how to handle a situation. Thank You for the strengths You have gifted her with. She is a powerhouse of energy as she guides and directs the wounded children in her care and takes care of the farm animals, too. Thank You for giving her Jake to help. Please comfort her as she misses Mike’s physical presence. And comfort each child in the uniqueness of their grief. May others be inspired through Mumsee and Mike to do such work to help children in need.
I pray in the name of Jesus, Amen
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Thank you so much, Janice. Third Arrow (my videographer) and I are just about ready to head out now to rehearsal. She’s got together all she needs for taping and an extra tape, too, just in case, and I feel ready on my end of things. I was glad for that first practice yesterday, though, as the piano at the performance venue is far different than my own. I needed just about the whole hour I set aside for practice just to get used to that piano. Today I think it will be much easier to get acclimated more quickly to it, and I should be able to get the music recorded, listened to, and re-recorded, if need be, before my hour session is up. I really appreciate the prayers!
Kim, so sorry what you’re going through. Please know I’m praying.
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Praying, Kim.
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Me too Kim,
Janice says words much better than I can. but the Lord knows what I mean.
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All day, Kim, praying for you.
I have seen you two together, Kim, she loves you. You love her. She is so used to manipulating you, she is just doing it. As is her dear poppa. Love P, she will be okay. Let George raise her, enjoy the time with her, grow with P. You have not chosen one over the other. She is choosing to be rude and cruel. That comes with that age sometimes.
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I am praying, too, for all of the above.
Kim, remember to take every thought captive. Stop the lies in your head and substitute those for truth. I so understand. It is so easy to believe the lies. If your daughter believes such a thing, your ex should be pointing out the fallacy of it to her, of course. Your daughter is at an age to think everything is about her. She is like a river and will go wherever it is easiest for her to get her way. Some adults exploit that, not looking out for the child’s best. Looking for their best is the hard way, but worth it in the end. Daughters this age can be very hard on their moms. Your value does not depend on her opinion, however, or anyone else’s. Grab those bible verses that tell you that truth.
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Praying for you, Kim. Listen to Mumsee & Kathaleena, their advice is good & sound. My heart goes out to you. {{{Big hugs}}}
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I’ll put my amens here. She’ll be back. You need to love your husband–and that’s a witness to your daughter. Trust me.
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Kim, remember last fall you asked for cards from different states to be sent to your young friend in Virginia? I don’t know if she told you what was written on the cards.
On each card, I wrote “Your auntie Kimmie loves you”. Late in the year, I sent one from Williamsburg and said, “You realize that if your auntie Kimmie didn’t love you, none of this would be happening?” Then, Next day I sent another that said, “It also means that someone loves your Auntie Kimmy, doesn’t it? “
You are important to a lot of people.
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I did not see your post until this afternoon, Kim. So sorry to hear that you are feeling down. We would all like to work out things here for you and others like Karen O if we could. Our hearts ache for those going through difficult times. I.do know that our Father God works all things out for good for those who love Him and are called for His purposes. I do believe that you have done best by BG in that you have given her responsibility to make choices and live them out. God does that for us, too. And you are showing her what it means to be in a supportive and loving marriage. We are on earth after the fall and marriage is never lived in the perfection God intended when He created men and women. Divorce and its complications hit some really wonderful people. You ard in the midst of a complication, but you know God iwill see you through as He has done in the past. Please find a hymn book and sing your favorites to remind you of His greatness and power over the temporary sufferings on this earth. We can’t fix things, but He can give you comfort and joy even in sad times if you will look to Him.
I will be praying for you.
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Kim you have been on my heart for a few days now…today especially as now I know your heart is hurting….we do love you so…and so does the 16yr old…she will come around…and true is the word that as she sees love and devotion modeled before her (you and your misterP) it will have lasting effects upon her…yep…it will…our “little manipulator” has seen it…and now….12 years later…I see a devotion and love between her and her husband…a united front as they parent their children (one being her 15 yr old step daughter who is giving them fits!!) …God is good…all the time…and all the time…God is good 🙂
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